Ransen's Blog

 If I can't get to sleep I have two methods I try Reciting poetry (in my mind) Going on a drive into the night (in my mind)  The rainbows which appear in front of me as I take my imaginary drive have now started to get up off the road and turn into flickering multi colored creatures who stay in front of the car as I drive forward. They are not menacing but are disturbing. I now have a third cure, it involves getting out of bed at some awful time like 2:30 am, but sometimes works: This is an "own brand" herbal tea which is supposed to help you sleep. I don't believe it, but I also know that a placebo can work even when the patient knows it is a placebo. And I wonder if this warning not to exceed the daily does of 2 cups a day...  ...is really just there to make the tea seem more effective than it actually is?  

I had a trick for falling asleep when I woke at 2:30 am as I often do. I would set myself a destination and would, in my imagination , drive from my place to a friends house, or a shop or where I work.  So I'd pass the green grassy area where dog walkers went, then under the railway bridge in Canegrate, passed Marylin's Bar, down the hill towards San Vittore Olona. I usually fell asleep before I got to my destination. For a few months it worked, and then I noticed rainbows appearing in the middle of the road. Longways, as if guiding me. Pretty things, but unreal. A month or so after the rainbows came colorful flat irregular polygons floating around and inside the buildings I'd been using as markers. Like huge panes of colored glass rotating in space, o hovering above gardens. Sometimes like ghosts they could enter into the buildings as if they were just a strange sort of light. These polygons did not seem less friendly. And now I wonder if the guiding rainbows were really m